JuS+NicE

Apology

2012-01-13T05:58:00.000+08:00

Some people said that I do not apologize because I never think that I'm wrong
I'm just another person that only say sorry when I think I'm really sorry and I'm wrong.
But then this is not theuu way it works I guess.
Sorry is essential when somebody thought that you were wrong even though you know you didn't mean that.
However when you apologize, you really need to show that you were sorry, not to say just for the sake of sorry, at least to the person you are saying sorry, even though you seriously do not think you are wrong.

But then, I do dislike those who said the first argument, because I'm just an ordinary guy who still do not know how to use the correct sentence to express what I mean.

And you, stop acting if you are a different class person even though you say sorry and thanks all the time. You are just another hypocrite bitch.

Exchange -- Switzerland tour

2012-01-08T03:31:00.002+08:00

来到这个完全没有想过会来的瑞士，这里的一切对我来讲真的是大大的惊叹号。之前想到上雪山，看看来了这么久没有看过的雪之外，就当作是个风景之旅。没想到每个城市有着不同的建筑风格，瑞士的教堂多有钟塔，zurich，首都bern，interlaken，luzern，到zermatt的屋子个个长得不一样，瑞士超高的物价，高山上的滑雪天堂，以火车为主要交通工具，花了不少买了个swiss pass。做每样东西都要算自己钱包里剩多少，有时甘愿挨饿，吃差一点希望看多一点，带多一点东西回去，能省就省能煮就煮。天气很好，雪终于看到了，一点也不会太冷，穿着高高的靴子不会担心滑倒。少女峰由于天气上不了，ski太贵滑不了，真的希望明天matterhorn 能够上，今天也不能上真的有很大失落感，但是明天就是在瑞士的最后一天，以后也很难回来了。好好享受吧
7／1/12

生活小點滴

2011-12-19T23:21:00.002+08:00

在歐洲裏，每次考完試后老師都會一一跟你討論你的成績，錯哪裏啊，怎樣改進等等，有時候會問你一些問題，考考你的思維，對那門課的理解，然後可能會給你高一點的等級，在你的成績簿上簽名。這裡每個老師都會要求你完成一定的功課才可以考試，所以會有 accessment 和 exam。亞洲，好啦在新加坡那裏可能會那麽親和呢？在這裡常常需要和老師交流，當然會懂多一點東西，師生的感情有一定的影響力。雖然這裡的功課沒那麽繁重，大多是學生都比較懶散，但是他們絕對是非常尊重老師，很肯學習。你在亞洲怎麽可能蹲在老師的辦公室外面好幾個小時等老師回來，在進去consultation？新加坡等一下你都會投訴，要不然就先預約。什麽都非常系統化，高科技，就是少了那麽一點人的親和力。我說我在ntu讀了2年都沒有在這邊見老師多，學的也沒有這裡的有用。歐洲就是不一樣，回去又很可能要適應會ntu納悶的生活。。。或許我會用更多時閒去找老師談天？噢噢，老師來了。

最近都在準備考試，說exchange考試壓力沒那麽大。我說壓力比ntu更大。
看的風景比較少，但體會的比他人多。
捷克你幾時才要下雪？

Czech short essay 2 Family

2011-12-06T05:26:00.001+08:00

Já jsem Yoon Chee. Moje maminka je účetní. Ma´ 54 let. Jmenuje se Merlin. Pracuje v priva´tni firmě.

Můj tatínka zemřel, když mi bylo 12. Byli Jsme velmi smutní. On vlastnil továrny.

Mam 2 starší sestry. Jmenujou se Katherine a Jacklyn. Nejsou dvojčata. Mají 31 a 29 let.

Můj starši bratr je student. Ma´ 21 let. Jmenuje se Yoon Keat. On studuje strojní fakultu. Jsme dvojčata.

Moc mi chybí. --- I miss them a lot <3

First short essay... talking about food HAHAHAHA

2011-11-22T06:18:00.001+08:00

Ja´ jsem Yoon Chee, z Malajsié. Nemluvím moc cešký. Mám rad čokoládovy dezerty. Mám nejím cibulový salát. Když jsem v restauraci, dám si smažený řízek a hranolky. Ten smažený řízek je moc dobry a kvalitní!

Path

2011-11-14T06:49:00.003+08:00

That day i was super homesick and i have made a skype appointment with mama at 10pm Msia time --> 3pm Czech time. I was out to school then a short visit to Vietnamese market, wanted to go back earlier but....ended rushing back to room.. scared cannot make it

Well, that day was a day i video called mama, mommy and bro. Didn't manage control my tears when webcam'ing... gosh i think i made my mom worried, which i don't want to.

hours later,

Mom sent me message then...
I'm know that my family is always there for me, and always worry for me even though i asked them not to.

I’m know that whatever i do, they will be there to support me

I'm know that whatever i do is right as long as i'm doing it how my mom taught me,

I'm glad that i was raised that way

Mom asked me bout my situation, yep i never tell her.
What i answered is that i'm going to tell her stories when i'm back <3

i told her that i learning to survive in a place which is completely out of my comfort zone

i told her that i learning to communicate with different types of person

i told her that i learning to compromise and step back when there is a collision between two strong forces

i told her that i learning to see how difficult life can be

i told her that i'm undergoing my process of growing up

and learning how to solve problems myself.

no one said that the process of growing up is smooth and full of happy and sweet memories,

i'm happy to undergo this process here, and learning while making mistakes, and growing by solving difficulties.

choose what u love, and love what u have decided,

this exchange experience is something i will treasure and cherish,

though i might not like most of the stuff here,

but i know my exchange report will be very exciting

what a lovely path <3
i <3 my family

Gosh

2011-11-10T03:49:00.002+08:00

i cried,

and it is not the first time since i'm here.

I think my exchange report gonna be so exciting

Travelling alone

2011-11-06T07:23:00.002+08:00

Somehow, getting a partner to travel together in this large expensive European area is not easy. Frankly speaking i don't like the current situation i'm having here in Europe. Not to say that i 'm unable to meet new friends, the point is that what's the point of having more and more hi bye friend, friends not treated as true friends, friends with benefits is not something i would love. Therefore, having a lot of new friends on facebook doesn't mean that you are socializing well here, in fact, enjoy your time here during exchange is what i would prefer. And so, maybe there will be some time you're gonna be alone, and being alone is what you need to familiarize with.
Mommy also ask me not to travel alone, i know it's dangerous to travel alone, and i chose not to let her worry, i always wanted to have someone with me wherever i go, name it shopping or just walk around in town. Ended up spending most of my time in room is not what i want, sitting in front of pc looking at the facebook update, act to be happy when i'm not really so. I wanted to study, but in the room with the coursemates around was very awkward. I don't like them, i don't know why, why am i here at the beginning. I chose to be here, but am not freed from my mind.
I need my mind to set me free, to travel alone and be a loner.

A loner indeed, i do not wish to tell mommy i am what i am now. Don't want her to worry a child who is so far from her, and his comfort zone.

I told mommy that i might be travelling alone, maybe in January to Italy and some other places, i wanted to be brave, but mommy didn't allow. In fact she suggested me something i would consider, that is going back home earlier.

We'll see. :)

Travelling post

2011-10-17T05:02:00.001+08:00

I hereby remind myself to blog about my trip to Netherlands and Hungary. Stay tuned

New stuffs

2011-10-01T07:03:00.004+08:00

Getting to know alot of new stuffs since i arrived at this very unfamiliar place 3 weeks ago. Time flies and seriously.. It's october already.

Well, i'm not gonna grumble about i fail trip to Germany today. quite a long story it is, and I'm think I have made a good decision. Believe me not? Hahaha
Instead, i went to a more nearby vietnamese market near Florence metro in Czech, compared to the previous one at Depo Hostiva, a wholesale market. You need to bargain here to buy cheap stuffs, well there was one 800czk decreased to 350czk, but i still don't wanna buy it. Well, i quite
like the bag, but the you-know-what-kind of person i am, the thing looks cheap(yes it is cheap) and i don't think it can last long. and..... about the save money_budget thingy running around in my mind. If i'm not rationale enough i might have just bought one bag, one scarf, one sunglasses and some jackets perhap?

Talking about vietnamese, they are the majority asians in czech republic, i don't really know how they came here, but the population stayed here for a very long time, selling stuffs, staying on their own. Well, i'm pretty impress that they speak quite good czech, and their stare us as much as europeans.. Sigh....

I am supposed to like gain more exposure during this exchange, i think i really need to see more, talk more and read more. Travelling helps, but it costs....

And i still can't really get over the budget_cost problem... yes i'm not rich. I wondered what people will think of to a calculative person as i am. I bet they have not met any more calculative person than me. Well, staying here is not always happy, am i not enjoying it or i just can't fit here. I told myself i might not be a people person, but i really do wanna make more new friends and meet more interesting people, listen to interesting stories. Where should i start from? I don't know.

Speaking to the lessons here, quite new to me, need to present slides every week, do readings and worried bout going to class. HAHA i am suppose to study here.. my mom told me.

I don't know why seniors said no need to study at all. Since it's all S/U and you still can retake back in NTU. I hesitated between travelling and studying. Travel = fun = money, while studying = no need to worry bout grades. I'm kinda lost.

Alright, nice updating myself here, i'll try my best to enjoy here and just be myself, no need to really stick with those i can't really clique on.　 All the best yo! YC signing off. 1.20am Prague

Started travelling

2011-09-18T05:14:00.005+08:00

It's around one week i've been here at Prague, things are almost done, after all those hectic and important admin stuffs, and the most head-aching course registration.... It's time for traveling!

Talk about the course thing, here i'm not sure how it works, but apparently they don't have an organised online system like STARS back in NTU, simply because they work differently in different faculty. To register a course under one faculty, you need to go personally to that faculty and fill in the registration form and get it stamp by the person in charge there. The problem is, if you are taking a lot of modules, and if they are offered by different faculties, u need to travellllllllll =X not to mention that the campus is spread out in the city of Prague, it might not near your dorm, and it might be out of the city too! Whoaaaaaa, naise man.

Timetable, i still don't know how it works, apparently they have allocated the time slots for us, the good thing is my Friday is still empty now... finger-crossed. Heh.. anyways i don't know how it feels to be an exchange student, should i study or should i not? Much complicated. Man... travelling more means more cash. XC

Anyway, the campus life is kinda bored, i don't there's any CCA here, and i missed dancing alot. Staying in this small room is too bored, so the only solution for me is either cook, eat or travel.

I mentioned about me started travelling, yep, with a bunch of exchange students too! Here we called ourselves, erasmus students. ISC here have prepared quite some trips for us to get to know more about Czech Republic, not prague itself, which is good. But before that we got a program called Prague Discovery Game, where we were to discover Prague... what else? Well it was good, we got spread out into different groups of 4-5 but mine was only 3. Met a German guy named Fabi and a Spanish girl called Katy. Not much of talking, cuz i shy and i think they probably have no interest on me. SAD MAXXX.

I went to Karlovy Vary, a very famous spa city in the north of Czech, where the major tourist are Russians. The city itself is famous for hotsprings, there are alot of hotspring water around the town and everybody is drinking it using a special cup with unique straw-handle-like design. The water is kinda salty, more to the carbonated taste, the hottest can go to 72 degree Celsius.

The town is almost famous for Becherovka, a type of strong liquor whose alcohol content up 20% and 40%. Tried 3 small cups of them, it was said that it was used as medicine in the older days, 2 cups of them can keep u alive for the whole day. Believe it or not, that day i slept at 10pm. LOL

Glass factory is also something we visit there, the one we visited is the Mosers glass. Luxury Czech crystal glass, as pricey as jewelries, every single piece of them are handmade, from the molding to shaping, cutting, crafting and painting etc.

Today i went to have a nice Mexican lunch with a buddy, william. It was good, went sightseeing again around the other parts of Prague. And such coincidence that there was a video mapping in the Old Town Square, to celebrate its 600th Anniversary of the Clock Tower. We went there, it was splendid.

"The Old Town astronomical clock is one of the most well known Prague sightseeing. On October 9th, 2010, it celebrated its 600th anniversary. On the occasion of this important jubilee, we have created visual screening (video mapping) that was projected right on the southern part of the Old Town Hall building. Each part of the screening described the most important chapters from the clock history."

There is something like pasar malam there, just that we don't have a castle as the background. *envious much*

The mapping was really awesome, and it was well worth short trip in the evening. Today's temperature is quite high, it is unexpectedly warm in the evening too.

The 600 Years from the macula on Vimeo.

Syiok. 11.45pm Prague time, YC signing off =)

Settle down in Praha

2011-09-12T20:18:00.004+08:00

Saturday-3rd day. Well it was a touring day.. we walk from 12 to around 9, just covered a small area of prague, including prague castle and old town district.
Camera battery flat on my way to prague castle which is OMGBBQCCBNNBWTF. so i can't take much nice photos!! It was a tiring day, nothing much except really warm weather and people crowding at tourist attraction. The buildings are sure nice, every single one is unique by themselves.

What i noticed is that there are alot of souvenirs shops around there, most of them selling quite similar stuffs, there is a whole street of shops but non of them are restaurants. Okay i might that there are no restaurants here, but pub and bar. Everywhere u can find tobacco shops and beer--- means everyone smokes and drinks here.

It was a hot day, the sun can really burn you. People can just wear shorts and tshirt with slippers to walk around. Yes i still hate it cuz i cant take much photos, my iphone is too limited to the wide angles and exposed all the time. =CCC

The next day, Sunday we went to a International Baptist Church located at Jiriho z Podebrad, where the TV tower is located. No time to walk around there cuz we are rushing to Ikea later. Anyway, it was my first time going to church and the feeling was good. What we all do is pray and sing and sing and say prayers, study abit of bible. Met quite a lot of new friends there, some of them from Ghana, India, Malaysia too, London etc. Had 3 hours lunch in this considerably cheap and local restaurant. Had some new food like pork knuckles and ginger alle tonic, which cost me less than 150 crowns. Talked alot and really enjoy our time there. Travelling with these 2 msia girls is abit sien cuz they not like taking alot of photosss. Feeling the urge to take more to share u all HAHA.

Anyway, people here are less gadget cray than asian, they not usually own a smartphone, and the living here is really slower pace than in asia. I enjoy the moment where u can stop in the middle of the road and look around, breathing air that is n times fresher than sg.

Went ikea to buy cooking utensils, realizing the fact that eating outside everyday is soo expensive. Their supermarkets and malls are located quite outskirt of the town and really super ultra big. Went in H&M and bought myself a cap, just for fashion LOL =D Seriously i think if i can send these stuffs back to sg and it's cheap, i will definitely send. Stuffs here is ok, not a good place to shop, but i am waiting for the next sale! More shoes maybe? HAHA

On this day i learn how to take tra

ms and some useful places i might visit again some time.

signing off at 2.58pm - Prague

Touched down at Prague

2011-09-10T14:30:00.004+08:00

It was a tiring journey, all the way from Singapore to Dubai and from Dubai to Prague, which took me around a day. Well there is not much jag lag over here, cuz u sleep and eat and sleep in the plane like nobody's business, screwed up your bio clock. HAHA

The first day was check in, do some admin stuffs, get som

e local currencies and walk around. My buddy is Bob, he is a nice person and he speaks really good english. Not much interaction with him yet, just following a

round and alot of asking.

We managed to have dinner in a nearby Czech restaurant (i think so) and there was our first meal in PRAGUE!! Anyway, thanks to Bob who introduce us some of the local foods like gullash (fried stick) and forgot already HAHA. Something to add on is that beer is super cheap and nice, one big mug is arounf 28czk means less than RM5. They love beer here, so ha i can train here too! They had a party on the first day

I almost forgot, here they uisng CZK i think "kroners" is around 5.9 to RM1, still dunno what is cheap and what is consider expensive here, but everyday is budget controlling and converting day. They have alot of coinss of which i really dislike cuz they are spoiling my wallet and making it so bulky. It's hard to get money here, if u don't care of conversion rate and charg

e, ATM everywhere. For me is abit difficult, but i'm sure i can sort a way out of it.

Ytd was the 2nd day, Bob took us to pay for accommodation, which is around 2 months and some deposit, around 11,000CZK... looks alot right, yes it is damn alot.

Plus some student ID stuffs and travel pass (only in prague), Bob took us to some other useful place around the campus and outside the campus. Travelling around here can be cheap, u can go everywhere, anywhere by sub

way or tram or bus, for a month for 290CZK , damn cheap cuz tickets here are calculated according to the time travel, much complicated =X.

Later then we went ourselves to Andel, a place name "angel" in czech, to do massive shopping cuz there is TESCO!! Spend kinda alot there, but overall it was fun but really tiring!! =S haha walk too much and ended up coming to dorm late. Nothing to eat though, so need to eat expensive stuffs.

Ha forgot again, CZECH is damn big, Prague itself is big too! The subway much more similar to Sg one, green yellow and red lines, u Push to open the door, and one thing r

eally awesome is that, u can actually take photo of each and every building here cuz they all look different and so damn unique!! Like it's a tourist attraction everywhere! Not much or sky-crappers here, this is one kind of calm and natural, i'll see more today.

Okay, much of updating, going out soon. 10am at prague, YC signing off.

Tired

2011-08-26T12:03:00.002+08:00

I'm uber tired now i don't know what to do.
I don't know what went wrong and i don't know how others felt towards me

Everything is clashing and i really can't help
It's not the fact that i wanted this but I've tried my best

What ever it is, i hope you guys are still with me.
Don't make it to the extent that i lost all my faith in you all.

I'm not made that way
Try your best and let it settle the rest?

Things i spent for INSTEP

2011-08-23T12:44:00.003+08:00

I'll now start writing down the stuffs i've done for instep, even though i haven't got my visa yet, which is truly SUPER ULTRA SAD.

well, attended one of the instep talk, got details from the seniors who gone to the country before..
-spend $2.15 each on the Transcript of my results,

-modules matching about 10 courses
-print out all the stuffs and get the form signed by school chair

-WAIT n submit after attending another talk

-VISA application ----> SUX MAXX

-translated documents [ bank statement($20), certificate of good conduct(RM10), statutory declaration($20)] around RM300+
-documents for superlegalization (what ever it is）around RM100+

-visa application fee (extra amount that need to be paid for our SPECIAL requirement of our pragramme, WTF!?) RM400 +

-air ticket to dubai transit to prague $1.6k

-medical insurance euro100+ per month

-winter clothings RM800+

-traveler cheque

-cash

-opportunity cost 100000000000k!!!

Waited for the visa approval for 2 months, i might die of waiting

If i still dun get my visa, i gonna

1)burn the embassy LOL

2)miss one semester in NTU

3)waste so much monnnnnnney

4)MEGA SUPER ULTRA SAD

okay this post is super random

TEEEHEE

Thin

2011-08-20T20:31:00.002+08:00

I am not very thin!!! though i'm thin ==

I am so gonna gain weight and start going gym liao. See me in 5 months time after i came back from europe, U WILL NEVER RECOGNISE ME

I've made a decision

2011-08-20T02:53:00.002+08:00

This post to for myself, to tell myself that i have chose this path, and neither i would turn back and regret, nor upset upon what's ahead of me.

I'm leaving you, n you n you n you in my heart.
I tried, and i have no regret.

Dancetitude 2011

2011-08-18T15:46:00.003+08:00

What we lived for... if u have missed the show, then u really missed something great!
Anyway, i must post this update, so that i know i gonna join dancetitude 2013 again, more item and enjoy more and more photos!!

No regret joining, 2.5 months of hardwork has given off, we had a great show. I'm honored to be part of it =)

Buck up

2011-08-02T10:58:00.002+08:00

We are not there yet, no excuses, we need to suck it in.
I am feeling so guilty cuz i can really do better, i have never perform my best before for all these full runs, i have not been staying focus all the time, the item is as messy as usual. We really made the choreographers disappointed and even stressed.
I'm telling myself to buck up every time, do it better than the last time, but why the ending results is still the same, i really need to reflect myself.
This route is harsh and difficult.
I really believe we can get there if we all are together, and working hard together.

12 more days, we need to train more and enjoy ourselves performing.
dance is something i enjoy doing, if that make me stressed up or demoralised, the whole meaning of expressing yourself by dancing is gone. By that time, i think i will stop dancing anymore.

Time to make it right

2011-07-31T23:08:00.002+08:00

I'm like so freaking long since my last update and i think i gonna freeze you for some time until i have something to record it down.

Anyway, life has been busy with work and dance, and everyday will be super shagged and tired and wtmfbbqccb smelly, knowing that the concert is really sooooooo near but we ARE NOT THERE yet!!

Seriously i felt that the concert is really so worth for 20 bucks and what we actually did is ttl for that concert, people cried people injured people suffered from all kind of emotional breakdown, even falling sick or demoralised for like 2 months, giving in so much effort just to show what it really mean to us for u guys fellow audience out there.

I felt so horrible knowing that i cannot execute the choreo right or really running low on stamina. It's sooooo depressing to forget steps and showing the OMFG face on stage. I really worried and feeling really not good b4 the full run vetting just now.

I dunno why, i gotta make it right, two weeks left!!

come down to support us, we really appreciate that, we are dancing cuz dancing is our way of expression ourselves.
14 Aug 2011,
Republic Poly TRCC

ticket $20
afternoon show at 3pm

Oh FxxK

2011-07-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

Now i feel more comfortable messing around with them.
I feel happier there,
Or should I say, I would rather choose to join them more
I wonder why.

I'm some one who are afraid or boredom,
It seemed there are so much for me to learn from them.

I wonder why, can somebody tell me why.

Dilemma

2011-06-26T23:39:00.002+08:00

I was kinda in a dilemma, wondering alone in all the time.
Dance is something i find myself enjoy doing but sometimes i'll get depressed by it.
Dance more might make me lose contact with my fellow friends, but as well got myself new friends.
I knew true friends will always be there for me when i need them, but i do not wish to seek for friend when i need help. But these few days i was kinda in the dancing mood and really seldom meet my friends, that hurts me too. How i wish to have supper with you guys to have some chit chat. But at the same time, I'm doing the same thing with my new friends as well, though it was not that delightful. If i might get myself more towards my new friends, will my friends still be there for me? Or i might as well join my new friends? It is hard to know somebody, not to say that to have close friends. I know it is kinda difficult to get it balance in both ways, but i'm trying my best to do that too. If u feel it so, u'll know how hard it can be.
Anyway, today's dancitude vetting is over, i'm much delighted but depressed as well as i could not do all the best i can. But anyway, it was a nice outing with some of my fellow dance friends. =) Happy enough to train and practice together and dance to express yourself.

Dancitude'11 will be a blast! more than a blast i would say, and i'll be collecting internal orders! If u want any do let me know before the ticket is open for public!

CUZ IT WILL BE SELLING FAST!
more details can ask me lar =)

My holiday

2011-06-08T22:14:00.004+08:00

I would most likely be spending most of my time dancing and working.
And after the visa, I think I'll be more time on events and friends.
Getting quite bored nowadays especially at night. Anyway it is always good to session, but i kinda regret choosing 2 items, i think i should choose more to dance to more genres and improve more. Nevertheless, I still hope I've made the right choice. =） it's going to week 2 and i actually surviving from it, and my body is adapting the ache and bruises. Bravo and training time. I needa gain meat not fat =) fighting!!

Let's go Bboy

2011-06-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

Ok,,this is hilarious and i cannot imagine myself doing bboy now. Damn freaking tiring and aching and need a lot of practising. It would be awkward to train in room with an ah tiong.. >< nevertheless i will try my best to conquer you, stay strong and get stronger, no more sissy i swear i can get over it. Body ache should be no problem after 2 weeks and i guess this is my time to improve. hehe

Alright, it's my first week of dancitude pracs and we still have two months to go! it will be a great concert.

And the music express thing, i guess i still cannot get the hang of it. Am i not putting much effort in it? Being in the ME family should be fun and not only doing jobs separately. I dun like being abandoned. Nevermind just do what i can do and i hope it wont go any worse. Finger crossed. =)

Signing off =)

dizziness

2011-05-11T17:22:00.003+08:00

=)

you will know what to do when u are feeling dizzy
one have to know that feeling dizzy and getting yourself dizzy is somewhat difference.
so please dont anyhow throw yourself into dizziness and u might not know that how long will u stay dizzied and do things dizzily.

ok i'm feeling dizzy right now.
i hope i can have some rest before going out to mug again.

next week will be my big day. still haven thought of anything to make myself happier or enjoy the big day. cuz things are piling up and i have no mood to settle them =D
run wild and be free, how i wish i can

back to reality todays structure is no comment. would not be too difficult but i don't think i can score well. anyway, the computation methods was piece of shit and the civil materials was somewhat, manageable. i hope i can maintain. =D

signing off

Day Dreamin'

2011-04-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

How i wish i can just eat and sleep all day =D

Something to encourage myself

2011-04-25T23:55:00.003+08:00

Well, i work hard for my GPA to get
1) Student exchange program
2) Scholarship
3) Something to prove myself

Well, all the chances are here, there's no point to let go before going for it right?
Trying won't hurt. Always have to stay calm and remind yourself that not all people will have the same opportunity as you, don't miss the chance.

Good night and i hope tomorrow's interview is fun!!

What a blog meant to be

2011-04-25T01:00:00.002+08:00

After reading a friends blog, whose title "own your reality without apology", what came across my mind is that i actually can write nonsense and craps in my own way and things in what way i want them to be. Just to satisfy my own randomness and crazy creativeness. Why should i kept going round and round in things that might hurt people feeling? and why should i only shout my loneliness and angriness at my blog and leave it there as an emo-graveyard. I never want anyone to read my blog, and why bother if people starts following it? That goes how terrible i have been using my blog for the past few months. Now on, it will be something i use to record tiny bits of my life. and no more emo post can? Going back to reality, I have been ignoring my blog for a very long time and i need to update something here.
1. going BCA scholarship interview on tuesday
2. have a nice bday celebration with my dear juniors, love u guys always and will want a gathering soon!!
3. finals in 2 weeks and end of my 2nd year in uni
4. dancitude in augs and i cant wait to dance again!

YC writing in a happy mood.
finishing my night with my cee materials notes and maths (hopefully)

Quiet

2011-04-22T13:46:00.002+08:00

I have been too quiet recently
I have a lot of things to take care of

And so just let me keep my mouth shut for a while.

Things to reblog when i'm free.
1) JDC
2) Room
3) Birthday

=)

回到事情发生之前

2011-04-04T00:37:00.002+08:00

现在很多东西都变了
变得自己不喜欢的情况了
回去可以吗

那时几时发生的事情
如果回去，可以换一下的话
现在会更好吗

我不懂原因
或许我将会是你讨厌那个人
只希望不要再继续酱紫

但愿如此 =)

不想理

2011-04-03T01:32:00.003+08:00

我忍受不了
那种态度
可能我比较敏感吧

好我在学习不敏感
有些东西向懂又不懂要不要问
但是如果人家要讲的话
早就应该会跟你讲

不要再理了吧
又不关你事。。。。。。。
酱紫也是好好的

看缘份吧

Untitled

2011-03-31T23:49:00.002+08:00

Too many things to settle,
Quiz
Dance
Practise
Tutorials
Assignments
Reports
Reports
Reports
Reports and
Reportssssssssssssssssss

I going nuts.

JDC

2011-03-23T00:36:00.002+08:00

JDC = joint dance concert.
我的第一场舞台跳舞concert。
很努力很想好好跳
很期待化妆，换好美美的costume
好好表演给大家。十分相信这是一个很不同的体验
要拍多多照！！
要交更多的朋友
今天练练到很累
和partner做的stunt 做不到
是我没有力吗。。。
可以做一个不够力的dancer？
不能不能啦

做不到做不到
不懂是我的问题还是partner的问题

人家是女的酱给我抬来抬去已经很好了啦。。。。

很累很痛。。。但我还是会努力。。。 ><

CHANGE

2011-03-20T15:33:00.002+08:00

曾经说过自己要改变。
turn into a brand new YC
但现在，
我从year 1 到year 2
到底变得怎样了？

LUV

2011-03-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

讲真这些东西跟人讲很没有人要理你

我真的很想说我很爱跳舞=）

跟你们喜欢踢球打篮球一样的爱
我没有什么不开心
只是少少跟你们不一样 =)

choreograph

2011-03-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

choreograph就是编舞。。
听起来就是很厉害是吗
今天就自己试了一下。。
真的真的很难！！
有时候觉得自己喜欢跳什么就跳什么，学人家的舞步感觉真的比较容易！！

真的很看齐senior们
真的很厉害编舞。。。
看来我只是适合学跳舞而已哦。。

哎呀。。。。。。

幸运的

2011-03-08T02:18:00.002+08:00

今天有少少纠纷。。虽然很影响情绪以下，加上不会做的CA x2
今天不能让自己不开心！！

还好，东西办到这还是好的
是你们太好了，还是我们幸运了？

感激感谢之外还是感恩
有时想，这我有份吗？

还好，很庆幸我是其中一个

东西是该想的
想多想少自己拿捏吧
暂时不要想这个了
还有2个ca呢！！

我不要

2011-03-04T08:06:00.004+08:00

我不要
有一天
我会成为
那种
我讨厌的人
然后
被人讨厌

怎样好怎样好

找人帮一下我 ><

怎样把胸怀放大

把自我缩小

乌龟可以忍受很多打击，

它有个很坚强的外壳

但是里面却是很脆弱的

必要时可以缩小自己，

在壳里面自我保护。

怪人

2011-03-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

熊运智

你不要说不要做之后又做然后又自断后路

你很烦你懂吗。。

今天是很开心的一天做完会计呈现之后又吃了麦当劳也可以去学生交换计划了

你可以不要酱紫吗？

你真的是个怪人叻！

nenenenenenenenenenebububububububu CHA CHA!!!

怪人是应该发出一些怪的声音 @@

捷克捷克我来啦！！

啥

2011-03-01T02:25:00.004+08:00

我要建立个人的风格。

听起来很好笑

我要建立人家对我的信心

这个有一点难

但是我觉得我做得到

请相信我

有些时候人总是有很多秘密

有些可以说，有些不问就不说，有些问了也不说

好我坚信人是偏心的 ==

谈别的。。。

怎么你说你看到了我很庆幸我看不到还是你们都看到了我都看不到不然就是我也看到了也不懂我看到了到底我们是各自看到了什么

学会不要那么敏感听起来很chim

我会努力的 =）

先不要理你

自己揽高档一下子哈哈 XD

让自己不emo

2011-02-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

1、学会冷血，只对对我好的人好，对某些人，简直就是浪费感情又浪费时间。

2、学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着，让别人看不穿你的伤心。

3、学会孤独，没有谁会把你当宝护着，要知道世界总是孤单的，地球也只有一个啊，它都寂寞那么久了，我们算什么。

4、学会坚强，其实一个人也可以活得漂亮，笑给别人看，哭给自己听就好。

5、学会忍耐，该闭嘴就闭嘴，该沉默就沉默。

6、学会珍惜，知心的朋友已经不多，如果再走，就真的只剩下自己了。

7、学会视而不见，恶心的东西选择忽视，厌恶的东西选择屏蔽，不会再有人让我不快乐。

8、学会满足，所谓知足常乐。想想小时候一颗糖果就可以开心一整天了。

9、学会独立，不能再一味的麻烦别人，自己的事自己做。

10、学会长大，不能再那么任性，那么幼稚，那么孩子气，多了会惹人厌的。

11、学会认真，认真的对人，认真的对事。

12、学会慎重，不该认识的人不要认识，不该插手的事不要插手。

可以让我考量的一堆字

但是，我觉得，emo本身是个性格，

我觉得我有这个改掉它的必要

怎么办啊

看来我的冲动很热情把你吓着了。。

但还是很想懂更多的你

还是你根本不想理我？ =(

金牛座

2011-02-27T03:12:00.003+08:00

金牛座啊金牛座。。。

熊运智你很typical金牛座

可以不要酱吗？？

看回以前的那个金牛座post。。

中完咯。。怎样

我就是长不大的金牛座。。。

我不成熟

吗？

习惯

2011-02-24T07:53:00.002+08:00

最近突然有那种什么都讲出来的冲动

可是自己都不确定自己为什么会这样想

很想向你埋怨一下

我很少会找人倾诉，

再来个小小htht吧！！ =）

我要改掉我选择性认识人的习惯

我该加强我的心的防御能力

对自己说不要这么容易被伤害了

嗯

酱就对了

膝盖很痛很痛

我是个怪人

惨了

2011-02-22T01:36:00.002+08:00

我一直以为接触得多就会更加的熟络

我一直以为这样我可以更了解多一点

我也很大胆的以为这样我可以找到了解我的人

我曾经很傻的真心对人好过

我是个很自私的人

不过一切一切已经证明了我的失败

我彻底的失败，我已经开始要放弃

遮遮掩掩的日子很痛苦，我毕竟也累了

我认真地想过戴着面具的重要性，因为我曾放下过面具

那个我很恶心

这几天情绪波动很大，达到我的心脏快要负荷不了

我觉得那些比较懂我的人也很搞不清楚我在干嘛

我自己也不知道这是种怎样的感觉

我没有试过，可能这是一种不必要理会的感觉

我不懂，但我很在乎

我这几天受了重伤，需要时间恢复

还有，我不能再接受更大的打击了

你，趁我还对你有少些好感的时候，不要再伤害我，在我还没决定完全放弃你之前。

我的sem2怎么过的如此的悲

Happy moment =)

2011-02-17T23:53:00.003+08:00

Today was a great day!! especially after i skipped one lesson in the morning... and i gonna let myself off for one night ^^

Well, it is good to note this day down, when i'm so overspilled with loves and happiness!!

as usual, today was our thurs MJ practise, the steps are so fast and i couldn't catch up as usual.

Eventually is was also an Angel and Mortal session after that. I couldn't imagine much for that at first.

Well, after the video'ing, Apple is so fierce for the first time, but actually we are learning and growing up together as a family. It's really nice and awesome i would say for him to be the president, i bet no one can be as special and capable to be a president of MJ. Once again, I'm proud to be a MJ'ian!! I wish one day i would so dedicated and committed to something i really love and share my feelings as well as to grow team with strong bonding among each other like him. Total inspired by him!! <3<3<3<3

And special thanks to Kangli and Sharina for the super cute Yoshi and Smarties-like ear piece!!

There are so many unpredictable and amazing things happened today, and i would say that the happiest and enlighten things happen around us is usually those we don't expect. =DDDDD

I would say this is a great moment i would like to cherish as a part of my uni life.

Moreover!!! I've got soooooooooo many Cny gifts this year, of most of them from friends i never expect them to buy. Perhaps it IS for FOA but I am terribly happy for them to even rmb me!!

I so sorry never buy for you guys but i know you guys will know that i'm not that kind of sending gift person.... ANYWAY!! THANKEW soooooo much!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Ya. today was a good day with a lot of sunshines and loves in the air. =DDD

p/s i just know that my chance of getting to czech is more and more lower now. =) but still the happiness compensate it!! hope my wishes could come true!!

and now i feel like drawing =D

yc happily write off.

Homesick

2011-02-07T00:52:00.002+08:00

i love my family

i bet everyone would say his/her family is the best family in the world.

and i started to be home sick as usual.

i guess the saying "distance make to heart grow fonder" is true

for my part as least

这次的回来

我会更期待下一次的回家

那么的一个晚上

2011-01-27T01:46:00.005+08:00

今天晚上的星星很少不知道他们跑哪去了

赤裸裸的天空

星星多寂寥

这几天的我一直都很恍惚

为了很多东西恍惚

东西都plan到一塌糊涂

早上起来只是想到不想过这一天

应该是时间去找一些正面力量

但不懂能量该去哪里去找

忙到盲，我只能一直走一直走

到了目的地很快又要去另外一个目的地

多么想只是很悠闲的过一天

我知道那是不可能的

人总是要长大

我是那个还没长大的

我很想念我的组

今天出来吃吃饭

很期待我们的outing

我不想每天谈来谈去就是活动

我很想我们是同一阵线的

我感觉只有我在很落后的站在哪里

很恍惚

我想自己领悟，很想自己有那种想法

我还是很喜欢埋怨，毕竟我真的很沮丧

我很感谢你常常提醒我不要埋怨

谢谢你骂我

我也应该只跟你们几个埋怨而已

一个人的世界很无聊

很没有自信，很没有方向

说真的

我很珍惜在我身边经过的每一人

我很盼望有人可以跟我躺在地上开开心心的长谈

一通电话，声音就可以给我温暖

很突然的遇到中学朋友

去吃了个随性的宵夜

回来很多东西想写

朋友回来了

心情很激动

好像有泪珠往向眼珠外跑

最近的运智开始失去理智了

我想活得更好

但我知道这很难

我称职吗？我自问

听着那么抒情的歌

回来打了这段很random的字

只想把今天的感觉写出来

可能明天去跳舞会让我暂时抛开我的烦恼

hopefully. =)

看了这张照片很想哭

我会想你们的，我走的时候，心情又会是怎样的呢？

Saturday

2011-01-16T02:16:00.004+08:00

Today's has been a long day, after much consideration and preparation we went for a meeting at bugis.. it's kinda a business meeting i would say, and still i never talk much during the meeting, i wondered why, most of the time how i wish i'm the one talking more, on a more confident note and in english i suggest. i wouldn't that bad if i'm talking english by the way. it's a good exposure to the outside world of grown ups and more into this music-song writing-industry, considering myself to start devoting my time to this event in ntu. well, it turn up quite well for the beginning and hopefully the ending of this event would like fireworks and i really wish that we could have something like appreciation dinner at restaurant or somewhere where we can all sit down makan and rise the glass high in the air screaming "yam sing". i hope we can bring out a good team who will found this event meaningful and memorable as well as productive to everyone. i believe the scale has to be turned out not as small as we can imagine before but i hope everyone is on the same direction. i do not know how it will go but i can promise it is as glorious as winning a war if we can make it a blast. and so it goes my lovely saturday evening following a long-awaited shopping around bugis junction, where a place seems to have a lots of not-really-cheap stuff but plentiful choices, especially the bugis street. damn crowded can? i never buy anything in the end. trust i hope i can bring something home, but luckily i brought back a happy heart, ready to face troubles ahead. another thing today is the dance camp thing which haunted me ever since email is in my mail box. everyone is looking forward to it while i am here to afraid that i couldn't stand the pressure and the routine. i didn't dance for so long and really for the first time i'm afraid of dancing. i mean, well, dancing are supposed to be fun but i really scared to collapse or anyhow failed to cope the choreo. damn siashui i know but i really lack of confidence, i know i never made to dance so professionally even though i hope can and i have not tried it before. anyways, good night and happy sunday. ^^

p/s do check it this out if anyone appears to see this. support MUSIC EXPRESS 17 and Funkie Monkie Music Productions!! help spread the word can? hahaha check them on facebook or google =D

Sick

2011-01-11T11:41:00.003+08:00

Being sick in ntu is not something you wanna try.

Especially having fever + headache + vomit + diarrhea at the same time and 40SGD at the dispensary is total shit.

I hate it when i sick soon after i came back to ntu.

I miss home so much... a call from mommy made me broke into tears. TT.TT

Get well soon please YC.

Let's type something

2011-01-02T17:17:00.002+08:00

Just wanna start typing something to start this lovely year 2011.

I wish to stay healthy and get to know more about what i wanted to know.

A happy and very wonderful family i have i always knew.

All i wish for this year is just healthiness and joy for everyone i knew, my friends and family.

Year 2010 was one great year to be cherished.

I am glad i have my friends with me in uni and i have grown up a lot.

I am glad i manage to cope my studies and events well.

I am glad i get to do more what i like to do.

Many things happened this year,

from a lot of head-aching design-deadline matching-decision making ME16

to self-improvement-identity forming-friend making fun GL team of FOA

and joining MJ, ME17, MAD

I have learn much but there's still more for me to learn

I have gain more wise and responsible but there's still a way lot room for improvement

I have been not a good friend to some one

I have been not a good child

I have made a lot of people annoyed of me

I have made a lot of mistake throughout the year

And all that was to be remembered but not to be repeated

A new year should be good till the end if it is started well

I cut my hair,

and finally bought my first shoe of the year as well as belt, pad, hdd.speaker, and many more

and i think i have finally got to know myself more

and i wish to have you all to made me a better person.

Cheers for year 2011 yo. ^^

满足

2010-12-29T02:03:00.002+08:00

人懂得满足吗？不要先说别人，讲讲自己吧

我懂得满足吗？

自认很容易满足，或许有人会认为我常常很不知足

如何看人满足不满足，很简单的就是看他的东西的要求

这点我自认要求高，容易满足不一定要求低，同样的要求高不一定不容易满足

谈谈物质吧，有些人认为我常常不满足，买了这个又要买那个，比如说鞋子

人问，为什么你有酱多双鞋子？某种程度上我会觉得很尴尬然后不知要怎样回答

然后会一直被人家问为什么一直要买鞋子。。。

不时自我辩护，我自认懂得去衡量，每做一个决定的时候都费过心思去想，鞋子冷暖自知，不好穿，痛有谁知道。。。买了又买？我没有

换个角度去想，为什么我要在乎别人怎样去想我？

变得直率是否会让自己好过一点？如何直率而不伤害到人是一点，同时如何出身世外也是一点

我做不了直率，也做不了出身世外，我只认很怕孤独，我不甘寂寞

回到满足这个点上，我满足我曾经有着几个要好的朋友，我满足我还有一个不会让我寂寞的家

在外靠朋友，你在外面怎样办，你就会有着怎样的朋友

我很努力去找朋友，所以我曾经忙过，颠过，换来的是几个知心的朋友？

我努力地去找好朋友，说以我曾经花心思过，累过，当然也得罪个不少人

自能说，我常常很不满足自己的朋友，我很常觉得自己很孤独。。我想，有谁寂寞是曾经想过我？这样讲很不公平，也很自我，很要不得

毕竟自己也没有常常想起其他人。。。这东西很平常，没什么好聊的，只是我自己的一个缺点

满足啊。。。要做到真的很难

所以我依然会继续找我心爱的鞋子

但我还要继续我的不甘寂寞，继续用自己的方式说话吗？

这次回家就要把这一点改掉，

首先要做到的是

看东西的时候不要只看见自己

给自己和你写激励卡。一起加油好吗？

好

2010-12-23T17:59:00.000+08:00

我决心离开你。。。

希望你会过得快乐些

Going back on 24th

2010-12-23T12:37:00.001+08:00

After leaving home for so long

I'm going back on 24 Dec

And will be a new YC after the vacation.

Emo post

2010-12-18T01:26:00.005+08:00

Yeap... It's finals and it's emo period. And it's thinking-too-much again (i guess)

Do you ever have the feeling that u are left behind or abandoned or being hated by everyone around you?

Well, it happens not only once but all the time and that all of the sudden, you feel like staying alone and away is the best solution.

Maybe people are having a hard time and were being emotionless for that very moment or they just don't feel like having a short conversation or maybe they were just annoyed by your presence.

The feeling is like you have done something very wrong to the extent that u feel like people start ignoring you all the time.

And you should start leaving or just stay quiet.

It's awfully sad when some one is being tortured this way.

And you would know how this people feel until you were treated this way.

There's no point trying your best to being noticed by everyone but at least you wish people to treat you as some one instead of no one.

Maybe you are invisible?

I think this is the best answer for you.

I'm sinking and sinking very deeply again until i can reach the bottom of the sea....

====i feel like watching natgeo at home ===== okay this is total random... =)

相信

2010-12-12T01:28:00.004+08:00

十二月过了差不多一半咯！！

很久没有打部落格了

很想念以前可以很随便地开开心心去打一篇

讲述自己这几天的日子

记载着年轻时候的自己

很一些自己的想法 ^^

现在要考试了

突然很有心情打部落格

不知道自己这一个学期

和以前很不一样。。是活动少了，还是自己的读书方式变了？

难道自己变得不像以前酱贪玩了

感觉书很快就复习完了。。。

功课不会做就去复习。。。

考试时又去复习。。。

所以大考时，感觉像读了又再读。。

或许是自己跟自己比赛

自己一个人读书真的可以很没有压力

历届考题做了很多份，

但做到最后好像等于没有做。。。

好像什么都不会，什么都不懂

担心什么的

想想。。。应该没有人是什么都会了才去考试的

考试是靠运气和临场反应。。

当然也要有准备。。。

最近好像遇到了一些很矛盾的事情

或许这是为了让我知道以后将会到一个怎样的社会的一个开始

有有能力的还有免费的骑者。。。。

老老实实最终会怎样？？

不过无论如何

相信熊运智还是很有能力的

ps。下个学期课很满，au很少

，要考很多，也要忙很多。

我要做工赚钱去exchange，买东买西，跳舞跳舞

可能又是要放弃些东西了。。。。

MERRY CHRISTMAS=)))

Such a lovely day

2010-12-03T02:21:00.004+08:00

It appears that I'm doing fine this semester as all the good news are coming one by one.

Hopefully all this will continue till my finals ends. =)

Went butter factory for the first time. As usual, I looked young and they need to check my ID (lol)

Quiz results were out and I got all of them A's (one 19.5/20 and one 10/10)

Tutorial question has never been so understandable.

The most headache thing had been solved and my committees are doing quite well.

The only thing to deal with is the happy and lovely final.. Which i only need to deal with 4 papers and 2 S/U electives (i hope i wont get U and i sure will study for it)

Today 930 will be another final assignment or what we term it as our "quiz".

Hopefully my work for it until 6 am pays and I am still able to happily steadily comfortably studying for the MOM at old can a tonight.

All that matters is that I finally got a mood to blog. =D

CHEERRRRRRSSSSS

p/s i missed dancing alot. MJ <3

impre??? =D

一个人

2010-11-22T20:22:00.002+08:00

话说。我这几天都一个人在过

很一个人的一个人过。

话说这就是所谓的潜水

但我相信潜水也会有一起潜的几个

至少都有一个

突然发觉

一个人要on起来

真的没有想象中容易

连我都觉得吃力

回去一个人的世界吗？

以前一起读书的同伴呢？

是你们离开了

还是我独自离开了？？？？

加油

2010-11-18T14:48:00.001+08:00

坐在电脑前

在专心地读着lecture notes

一个人的房间

舍弃了做工的时间

今天不懂为何会有那股懒散的想法

说好的鞋子呢？

今天

房间内似乎多了种冷静

看着面子书

时不时的update

心想

那些在线的朋友

你们也是不是一样在啃书？

一起加油好吗？

I won't be allowing myself to get more

2010-11-16T02:00:00.004+08:00

No mood to update these days,

I wouldn't start worrying until I need to worry

And is this truly matters?

I thought I have really get along with this and already let go of it

But

I couldn't imagine what kind of person I am going to be when there is another one more

And I'm not going to allow this to happen again.

I don't want more C's to get into my way in getting happier.

Should I care bout this?

I think this is still necessary.

Less play time. for the time being.

I need help.

I want i want i want i want

2010-11-12T00:29:00.004+08:00

OH yEah~ I went to nike outlet at west coast plaza...
and went around the queensway shopping centre...

Voila!! and i really really really really want one!!!!!
arggghhhhhhhhh

i want earn one.. plz and thanks i want more.. hahaha

This post is just another crapping post..

I couldn't help myself yelling if i got one!!!
I can't sleep without one.. >< >< >< >< >< >< ><

I'm not having a good mood

2010-10-31T18:35:00.005+08:00

All i think of is dance and draw and go gai gai.
And i'm doing them now.
Hopefully my mood went good anyhow. =)

YC is still having a good time in uni.
No worries.
No need ask me to gah yao here. Thanks and i know it.

I'm doing my own way

2010-10-30T17:34:00.003+08:00

Should I like start being upset in front of other people who are enjoying the current moment or enjoy myself too though I have nothing really to enjoy I dun think it is necessary to be there anyway
Then I choose to keep my upset instead of sharing it which with make others do the same way too then I keep it in my heart and let it be at the moment
But then I have my own way to get rid of the upset and share my joy with others at the very moment I m enjoying myself and though it was time consuming and tiring
I think I m correct to do this my own way

Still things need to be solved
And yet it was not solved yet

I just being selfish to myself

XD I m writing this in my own selfish way too
And I m looking forward to other things which are not your trend

理由

2010-10-28T03:31:00.004+08:00

很多时候人会一直找

好听的叫理由
不好听的叫藉口

我多么的想
我在找的是理由
一个就够了

找到理由之后

就会凭着这个理由
而有动力朝向你的目标

当你要一样东西
你需要理由

当你不要一样东西
你需要的也是理由

很烦恼的在找理由当中 ><

2010-10-16T14:27:00.003+08:00

I'm tired and i really having difficulties.

BUT what still with me is my passion.

hope it will get anyhow better ^^

p/s .mommy buy iphone 4, then i get her iphone 3Gs.. ><

This is ridiculous

2010-10-13T12:50:00.003+08:00

Am I wrong in any sense?

my commitment

HAS

been

categorized

into

a

kind

of

busybody

and
i m totally speechless

hmmmmm..... ?

2010-10-11T02:57:00.001+08:00

zomok我会这样想啊。。。。。

是对还是错？感觉怪怪的
乐在其中的应该很高兴

而对旁观者言。
。。。。。。。。。。。

不懂啦
开心就好

睡觉去 ^^

A night to remember

2010-10-10T01:21:00.002+08:00

today's mafia was ended really well i may say.

i bet this is what they got for working and being together for a year. gratz and i'm really glad to be part of the show. (geez) we were indeed the climax of the entire show. XD

it was a night to be remembered, as the first dance performance with those old seniors. we rocks indeed, peace!! though the song is short, the practise is short, the choreo was abit difficult, the ending pose was a bit painful, the whole week is entirely full with classes events and practises.
it's happy to be this kind of busy mode, i supposed. ><

well, this week's event and CA have officially came to an end and i should working really hard for 5 CAs next week @@
monday and tuesday would be the recruitment night. and i'm having 3 CAs on tuesday and 1 on wednesday while the other one will be on friday.

Obviously i'm have not prepared for the CAs yet. who cares =)

some more i went to shopping at bueno vista and bought two very cheap sweat pants^^
each 3 dollars only... =D

i'm enjoying my uni life now..
living each day and night to the fullest

how about you?

one day, yoon chee will be surprised
what kind of yc was when in the uni.

不做白不做

2010-10-06T01:57:00.002+08:00

做人要干脆。。
我学到的
我可以的话

就把它传下去。。。
至少我有那么一点点经验

我不会的
我会很不放弃地学好它。。
跳舞。。我不会放弃你
就算off了，就代表我在另一边on了

所以说，
既然心意那么决定，就不要像当初那样的踌躇
那样的钻牛角尖，那样的埋怨

说好的给自己的目标
我有很努力的去着。。。

很高兴
因为我来大学不只是读书。。
我在书读得不错的当儿
也活得很精彩

新的体验，新的尝试
要做就去做吧!!

plan时间去!!

Brand new Yc

2010-10-02T22:39:00.004+08:00

Well, tee hee , i aint gonna let my blog hog in a sad post...
and it's quite some for me to recover and

TA-DA!!

i'm back with a new YC, trying his best to live life to the fullest ^^

i made a new notebook on that sad day,

it's been a long time since i last draw something.
and it's for me to draw my own calender each month, to manage my time better.

better yc is trying hard to give people what he wants to give, as well as to do things he wanted to.

this second year of his uni life is starting afresh but yet still awesome.
i would mind if it is a bit busy and was quite unable to hop onto it currently but i believe i will soon.

a year of with new clubs and events, i chose welfare services club (WSC) friends of children (FOC). this is something yc want to do in order to learn something new, while serving the community as the same time. the first day of the bright owls project (BOP) was a nice beginning, getting to know the club better and to commit myself more into helping children from family of low income and help create a better bridge in between their parents/ family and the children , as well as to develop a better character of the children, armed with life skills etc, through mentoring and tutoring them.

this is consider new to me. i have been always wanted to learn, and learn and learn. i have been working recklessly, aimlessly and being someone who is always gnarly and live in my own world. this is no good at all. i wanted to change. ^^

at the mean time, i went for the audition of modern jazz hip hop dance (MJ), of which i was really nervous and being uncertain of my willingness to commit myself into this. i saw myself having a lot of problem managing my time for studies and clubs. what i mean is that, i was being timid and stupid before i wanted to get something, always.

nevertheless, they accepted me, being one of the 72 successful from 320 auditioned, i made my first step to try new things, though uncertainties still lie ahead.
the first class was awesome, and now i know i got plans to make myself stay fit and healthy ^^
that is through dancing =)

another thing is that i also went for the tzu chi (慈济) youth camp today, bound myself to even more social services as well as a new path to develop positive thinking and for self development.
the sayings from Buddha and the good moral altitude and behavior was put into real use in our daily life, how we get to treat both us and others better. for example, how we think when we saw something which was intentionally not good to us, how we make our thinking to turn 180 degree to something good, how we look things in different angle, different ages and alot more.

there are certainly a lot of thing for me to learn.
but there are too less time for me
so i choose to live my life to the best
in a non-greedy way
and one step at a time.

never see problems which is lying behind of the chance,
but to see the chance after you overcome the problems.

awaiting the brand new yc to accomplish what he wanted to accomplish.

cheers

B for Bryan

2010-09-29T19:20:00.002+08:00

This post is meant for you.

I lost a friend.

And I couldn't imagine the feeling I'm having now.

It's a day of sorrow.

Life's unfair.

do rest in peace.

we will miss you.

Aiya

2010-09-27T16:23:00.004+08:00

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh

I passed MJ audition...

and....

still thinking if I wanna reject...

aaaaaaaarghhhhhh

argggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

btw. MJ = modern jazz hip hop dance in ntu

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

小update

2010-09-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

回忆起G奶团的aston 晚餐

我们再一起去suntec

吃 aston specialties

要吗要吗？？

不要管那班猪啦 XD

Untitled

2010-09-23T03:12:00.002+08:00

Today's word of "wisdom" --
It's been a very long time since i talk with someone like this in the midnight.
Perhaps......i really wanted to know this someone.. and be a good friend of his, if possible.

Well, this post were not meant to say anything.
Just to tell myself...

That though you were confused of something.
And unsuccessful in doing something.

One thing for sure is that you should change

your altitude of being sarcastic and stoned-head
your altitude of being unlikely to accept others
and stop grumbling.

do learn how to compromise and let go..

The air will be much more fresher outside there.

MJ : here i come..

This year should be a year for me to pursue my likings..

宽容

2010-09-20T01:07:00.001+08:00

宽容，是一种修养，是千百次的忍耐而提升的人格魅力。宽容是一束阳光，时刻照耀着我们，就看我们如何面对。生活中既没有完美无缺的事物，也没有十全十美的完人。苛求人生完美无缺的本身就是人格的不完美。学会宽容生活的不如意，就是享受。

　　一味地抱怨和指责他人，就意味着将自己置身于社会生活的旁观者地位，宽容地对待他人的同时，也就体验了宽容大度的欢乐。宽容是一种健康人格的特征，它基于理解而又高于理解。

　　漫长的人生旅途中，每行进一步都难免会遇到不开心和不如意的事情，诸多烦恼也无时不在困挠着我们。无端的指责、无中生有的猜疑、甚忽背后的流言蜚语……倘若我们因为不懂得或不善于宽容，事事逞强，处处患得患失，必然活得心累至极，人生也因此失去了许多惬意与美好。学会冷静地面对所发生的一切，事情往往会顿释前嫌，化险为夷。学会宽容地待人待事，培养起娴熟的宽容思想素质，我们的生活就会多一份空间，多一份爱，我们的生活就会多一份阳光，多一份温暖。

　　宽容能使人性情和蔼，使心灵有转折退让的余地。当我们面对朋友的误解、伤害和不友好，面对人际关系的隔膜、冷淡，大度地予以宽解和接纳，尽可能用微笑的、通情达理的目光去打量周围的人和事，那么，人世间就多了一种美丽的胸怀，一种美好的精神气质。心胸豁达的人，从不把宽容看成是忍辱负重，而是看成一种美德和幸福。

　　宽容和忍让是人生的一种豁达，是一个人富有涵养的重要表现。当面对伤害过自己的人，报以宽容谅解时，不但会化解、避免很多无谓的矛盾，而且会产生一种温暖的自我完美感，足以消融自己的痛苦、烦恼。因为宽容，许多烦恼琐事，便会不战自败，便会自动地烟消云散，退一步说，亦伤不了自己。伤不了自己，便是爱自己的最好方式。

　　宽容是一种仁爱的光芒，是对别人的释怀，也是对自己的善待。一个人的胸怀能容下多少人，才能赢得多少人。当与你有过敌意的同事，互谅互让，争相认错，主动握手言和时，宽容便是甜润的春雨，冲刷了积淀于彼此心中的轨迹，最终获得“双赢”的佳果。多一份谅解，多一份宽容，多一份宽待，多一份善意，我们身边就会更加和谐，人生也就会变得更加精彩。

　　多宽容一次人，多造一次福；多争一次强，多一个敌人；多患得患失，必多困惑与烦恼。一个遇事不冷静、不理智、不能宽容他人的人，往往会生活失去平衡，小事酿成大事，矛盾由此更加激化，以致后患无穷。反之，宽容大量，和气待人，凡事识大体顾大局，拿得起放得下想的开，就能化大事为“小”，化小事为“无”。宽容的人，往往心胸宽如海，敢于直面困难和挫折，以平静的心态去面对人生。宽容别人，等于善待自己。

　　人人称羡宽容，常常希望得到别人的谅解和宽容。遗憾的是，我们在希望得到他人宽容宽恕的同时，却很少想到他人也希望得到自己的宽容。一些人安于接受别人的宽容，却从不打算把宽容施之他人。殊不知，如果自己不能宽容别人，就很难从别人那里获得宽容。所以，当你遇到别人有意或无意的“伤害”时，不要总是计较，总想报复，要学会与人为善，豁达大度。忍让待人，以德抱怨不是怕人，而是一种谦恭风度和崇高境界。有人认为，宽容是姑息错误，是弱者避世的表现。其实不然，恰恰相反，宽容是强者的爱心和理性的充分展示，是一种化怒为喜转忧为乐的智慧，是一种超然物外的大智若愚。只有心胸狭隘、固步自封的弱者才吝惜宽容。

　　宽容是助你成功的法宝。没有淡泊无以明志，没有宽容无以致远。宽容的人生，生活将达到一种恬静、超脱的境界，不至于承受憎恨与报复的压力，不至于浪费时间和精力去挖空心思对付别人，可以专心致志于自己的事业，在平凡岗位上干出一番辉煌业绩。

　　一个有志于事业成功的人，宽容对他来说是一门不可忽缺的人生必修课。胸襟博大，心宽志广、万事顺达，他就会上下和睦，左右逢缘；以充沛的精力投入到工作之中，使自己的事业大有成就。学会宽容，也许这正是人生处事最高深、最艰难的修炼，谁的修炼最独特，最成功，谁在生活中得到的益处就最多。诚所谓吃亏是福，忍让是德。宽容是我们每一个人都应该具有的良好道德和修养。

　　宽容是一种心灵的抚慰，一种友情的闪烁。宽容的胸怀，博大明净，能容得下天光云彩；容得下人间万象。宽容，有助于我们的心态平衡，有助于我们的身心健康。一个心胸狭窄，目光短视，常常苛求别人的人，由于他内心的矛盾冲突永久得不到解脱，极易导致人际关系紧张，处事法则轻率错乱，折射到自己身上，自己也活得如负重载，忧郁寡欢。天长日久还极易诱发多种疾病。倘若我们内心豁达，心态从容，充满阳光，充满友爱，随时随地把阳光和友爱带给别人，那么，我们的生存世界就会阳光灿烂，生机盎然，友谊长在，愉悦无尽，欢乐鼎沸。

　　宽容是水晶，是美玉，是健康，是生命，她明澈而珍贵，难得而无私，让我们每一个人都珍惜宽容吧！(山东大学陈吉康）

你说的

2010-09-20T00:53:00.002+08:00

熊运智
你说过不要放弃

所以
不能放弃

你说过不要emo

所以
不能酱容易emo

你说过要改

所以
不能再转弯抹角

你要习惯
自己一个人

你要知道
这世界

不只是只有你这个人

想想

2010-09-19T01:48:00.002+08:00

很多时候。。

我需要去想想

如何不要酱自我
停止这种恶习

熊运智

想想后

才说....

你真的不对

要好好提醒自己这点
不然以后没有朋友

你不对

不对要跟我说

FOA

2010-09-18T03:38:00.000+08:00

做了这一届FOA的GL，多多少少都有感触。
从开始工作，无论是GL Performance 还是 Souvenir 还是买材料，做道具，Outing，小看戏
吃supper，小debrief，JB一日游等等。。。
都是和GL Team一起共度的时光，一种到老还是会回忆的合作和成长过程
在16个不同的性格的人当中分了8组，可能真的能够沟通良好，达到默契十足，合作无间的真的很难。。。我可能是还在烦恼当中。。
个人的问题也许无法解决，毕竟缘分如此，不能强求。
GL Team让我有一定的成长，进步以及认识更多以前没有接触的人。
感谢CGL 给我这个机会。
选了一个很令我放心的SA Team，在我很烦恼解决个人问题的时候，有一群人可以分担组的问题。虽然没有每天晚上都有debrief，可能是时间的不允许，也可能是我的一种逃避，也是我的一种遗憾。很多时候都得在camp中交代，很random的我让大家很惊讶，不好意思。
这个组有时会让我无奈，不懂要如何用我的热情熔化你们。我一直很努力地站在前面带，SA也很配合，很帮得了，很信任，虽然一开始很辛苦，但大家都尽力了。
Junior，很抱歉，我这个GL感觉没有作得很好，还好你们不懂一个GL是怎样的，因为我们大家都不懂GL是要如何。或许你们有时会觉得我很烦，很无聊，很娘，很幼稚，很过动，还有很多我都不懂要怎样写，我很努力，希望你们看到我的用心。带你们很开心，但同时也有点内疚和对不起你们。我们的组员一直无法到齐，GLSA camp过后也很忙，可能无法像别组一样，一直陪伴你们，去做做大学其他的乐趣。。哈哈，想必你们也希望可以长硬翅膀，自己飞了吧。。。。飞到累的时候就回来永远开大门欢迎你们的锡米露。

FOA给我感触很多，以一个senior的身份参加，很一年前，很值得回忆的“牛顿First咯”，Junior的身份体验的不一样。希望你们Junior也体验到我们以前Senior给我们家的感觉。。。好好的把这份热情传下去，加入 AMCISA大家庭。
我的催化使命，你的化学反应 ^^
貌似弱智但不是的运智

回到最初

2010-09-16T12:54:00.002+08:00

当你觉得你走头无路了
觉得很乱很复杂

很想听很想懂很想理解
很想开心很想逃避很想贪心

很感谢一直给予我劝导
给予鼓励给予想法给予意见的大家

很很很很很感谢
谢谢子发谢谢志明谢谢威龙
谢谢雪婷谢谢军威谢谢国锦
谢谢言冰谢谢支持我的juniorss

盘转了许久

在领悟了一些东西的当儿

我终于回到最初

最初最单纯的感觉

=D

nothing is impossible with or without you.

我很烦。。。

2010-09-16T00:28:00.002+08:00

我不懂我不懂我不懂
我现在要做什么
我不懂我不懂我不懂
我现在最快乐是什么
我不懂我不懂我不懂
我在烦什么

我就是很烦很烦很烦很烦
我要自私要为了什么

我需要很多意见很多意见
但不够时间了

我很难很难自己做决定
我要改要改
我埋怨的坏习惯

我很难很难很难
真的开心

很难很难很难
真的懂我要做什么

很容易很容易很容易

被人家影响
我很少觉得自己很好
我真的觉得自己没有人家讲得酱好

很烦很烦很烦很烦

明天我要去那里？？？

久违的yumcha

2010-09-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

很久很久。。。没有和你酱紫聊天了

没有话题的始终没有话题
但是感觉很好^^

或许
我需要接受不一样的东西
体验一下别人没有机会体验的东西

我很贪心
在什么都很乱的时候
什么都想要

可能
不忙的时候
我最乱

考虑当中。。。。

。。。。。。
沉思

有谁要陪我走吗？？

过了

2010-09-10T02:36:00.002+08:00

很多时候，我会选择逃避
逃避一些我自己知道没有把握的东西

为了改善，我选择了面对
而面对让我遇到了自己已经预计到后果
后果自负这句话我很了解
时间不长，终究也过了

不要回眸以前，但我还热爱回忆
想一想对与错
我做对了吗？我还很质疑
我熟悉了自己的风格
有人跟我说我那里错了吗？
我很想看另外的一个方式
我很想放手

一句”平步青云“ 令我觉得恶心，不自在
我对文字很敏感
对每个都有很自我的见解

请容忍

如今的我，似乎在等待一些东西过后才来安定我的生活
很乱的开始
我还没有确定我要怎样走

每条路都很想尝试
每条都有点有心无力

开心的东西都会变得不开心
一切都好像变得不顺心

或许我又想太多了

19个au 真的很少
我不懂我要如何更顺利地度过我的第二年
我需要竹竿帮我撑腰

这里竹竿很难找

解答

2010-08-24T16:52:00.002+08:00

我需要解答

我不清楚自己的问题在哪里。。
我需要一个能表达我的问题的句子

我找不到当拍档的那个感觉
我想到问题时，我很自然的自己做决定

我感觉很独来独往
有时我需要意见
有时我需要单独

我应该让步？
我不懂该如何让步

让步会让自己担心

我不懂你对我的感觉是怎样
我不懂要如何告诉你

告诉你之后
我不想你会有那种感觉

但我知道你一定会那样

我需要一能表达我的问题的问题
我需要那个解答我的问题的解答

或许

我根本不用想酱多？？
我掩饰到很累

也许

我又再一次
一开始就踏错脚步？？

很头痛
很烦
很忙
很不想开学
很想有房间
很想快点完

Hate

2010-08-20T21:20:00.002+08:00

For once in my life...
I have never been through this kind of disastrous journey
and never been so upset yet angry and hopeless and pitiful and annoyed and disgusted and stupid and aimless and whatever negative things that comes to my mind....

How do i look today??

I need to know..

gimme a reason
i think i looked stupid all day long.

and i wanted to yell and scold but i don't know who to blame.

things are all the same...
why isn't anyone start to change???

Yet another post.

2010-08-20T11:50:00.003+08:00

This is the ? time i'm in a airport waiting for departure??

I wondered.
Well, waiting alone is somehow... lonely and awful
and i'm not meant to be sarcastic.

Taking a flight back to Singapore again was my idea, seriously.. as i have to carry a huge luggage. @@
the uni reopens soon and my dunno-what-happened-holiday is going to end.

It's getting cold and i am indeed shaking here, my jacket was in my luggage.
Gosh..

Should i say this i shouldn't consider go back Singapore on plane again?
I think i should have better plans, well, regardless of being alone or not alone..
I mean i would not care if i'm alone..
What i care is that.

I felt dumped

Yeah, it's real

Thanks.

Something not so important

2010-08-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

Some times, one loves a nice thing
but, it appears to have a nicer one..
why should some one prefer the nice one to the nicer one?
regardless of the chances of getting them...
what are to be taken into consideration?

perhaps some one will only consider the nicer one when he gets the nice one.

greedy?

what word will come into your mind?

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

well, it's been years since i have played kingdom hearts and kh2
nice game, cool soundtracks, awesome story line..
the one and only game which drives me to this crazy ambition of being a game designer or what ever as long as i can get into square enix
"cool" i would say as i m not pursuing it anyhow.

well kh birth by sleep is really worth playing as well, though it's in japanese, of which i need to do the transcription every now and then... my level one jap. @@

square enix wont produce lame games, it's true and it will be always right. i love it and i m a all time fans.

gosh..

nites world.

C for Courage, not Chee

2010-08-08T22:35:00.002+08:00

Currently I am lacking of source of courage
Coz I knew this is something I need time
Consultancy is what I need I may said though I have been given alot
Consequently, I hold myself out.. for not being hurt
Causing myself to keep running from it.

Chee always tell himself to give anything a try
"C"imply because he wont die for doing those

.............
C-ing this thing would be lethal to me, I m a bit nervous...
Courage is what i need are still not yet found
Couldn't be sure that if there's a possibility for finding it

Yesterday..
Huiyi asked me to "加油"
I gave her a grin..

But here... I wanna say

I will ^^

but though...

Chee's C for courage has not been found.

准！！

2010-08-06T01:48:00.000+08:00

金牛座是个不用对别人放电却可以将人电到的唯一星座

金牛座的人偶尔给人很高调的样子,他们的性格自成一派.

金牛座的人常常被人说是忽冷忽热,

金牛座的人常常让人觉得他们闷闷不乐.

金牛座的人往往很像双子,拥有双重性格,要深处才会发现.

金牛座的人一半明朗一半忧伤,一半冷漠,一半热情.

金牛座的人对陌生人无视,对不熟的人外热内冷,

金牛座的人遇到喜欢的人反而有种疏远感,他们会害羞.

金牛座的人有时很霸道,强烈的占有欲,

金牛座的人懒,怕麻烦,所以不喜欢和人搞暧昧，不喜欢勾心斗角，不擅长心机。

金牛座的人慢热,他们把感情也当作一种艺术欣赏,他们选择慢慢雕琢,细细品位.

金牛座的人其实不敦厚,这只是外表而已,但并不是完全没有.

金牛座的人似乎都看起来傻傻的,这是一种自我保护方式.

金牛座的人很讨厌别人骗他(她),但除了自己最爱的人之外, 如果你欺骗了他,他会很聪明的捉弄你,说谎也看不出马脚.

金牛座的人有时会很有耐心,有时没.

金牛座对自己要求很高,

金牛座的人守护神是美与爱之神维纳斯所以品位很高.

金牛座喜欢自然的东西,

金牛座选衣服不会盲目追求品牌,会选择有质感的衣服.

金牛座很冷，一定要對方先流露出对他有好感，他才会散發出她的熱情

金牛座低調：默默無聞。他一向是高調做事，低調做人，其實他要的不多，他要的只是一個避风港，避风港对

金牛座來說太重要了，一個知心的朋友，一個他愛的并且也深愛他的人。金钱，名利，地位這些他看的很淡泊，唯一具备殺傷力的就是感情，感情如果受到傷害那就全毁了

金牛座希望有一個自己的城堡，如果可以，他愿意用一輩子的時間躲在城堡里，永遠不出来

金牛座哭泣：他受傷后會躲在被子里獨自哭泣，請相信這不是在博取你的同情，這是他這樣一个内心骄傲的人不得已時的場景

金牛座脆弱：很傷感的他雖然習慣在人们面前偽裝得很坚强，其實很脆弱，也很傷感地聽著傷感的音樂，看著悲傷的电影，他的眼中会渗出淚花

金牛座外表堅強，内心脆弱，孤傲只是用來保护自己，害怕被傷害，不會偽裝自己，不會討人欢心，

金牛座喜歡充滿陽光，他不一定很富有，他喜歡养尊处优，他有一种想讓人多看一眼的獨到氣質

金牛座孤獨寂寞的他从不轻言說愛，他的愛很沉默，那并非他缺少那份勇氣，是因為在他的心里有一道護欄--那就是自尊，他看的比生命更尊貴的自尊，如果有一天，金牛對你說：l love you 那么希望你好好的珍惜他因為他對你說了。。。。。。那就代表你在他心中的地位超过了他的自尊

别愛上金牛座，金牛座討厭虚伪,討厭謊言,討厭欺騙别愛上金牛座，金牛座没有安全感,也不會給别人安全感别愛上金牛座，金牛座愛不起,更怕受傷害别愛上金牛座，金牛座喜歡自欺欺人,一直以為以後都會好的别愛上金牛座，金牛座很傻,很天真金牛座堅強,淡然.他的心時常會痛，就象那些輾轉在自尊下的愛痛了，疼了。
要是爱上了，就请容忍他,以上的秉性，并且好好疼他。

No idea

2010-08-06T00:17:00.006+08:00

I was in such a good mood to blog but ended up losing my mood.
I don't know why actually. So I asked someone to restore my mood and gosh that guy ignored me.
Lolz. Kinda crapping all the way here.
I have no idea what kind of person I am. Am I not too eye catching or gorgeous enough to be noticed?? I had been thinking this all the time. ROFL ...seriously...
I maybe a too little sarcastic but i bet this what others think too. Wanna bet?
Well the very fine yoon chee will not suddenly blogging something like this here.
In fact, I was thinking that I should be writing either some serious matter to be discuss about or funny stories that I'd like to share... maybe some other personal thing I want myself to remember.
Hmm.. and what's that actually????

Bout my dream?
Recently I've run into some tv shows about people striving their goals and ambition and I couldn't remember the title of the show then. Well, fair enough, people should really go for what they want, and it is possible for a dream to become realistic.
"So long you have taken your first step, you are one step closer to your dream"
How nicely framed the sentence is, I was talking o myself. Yet I am not getting closer to my dream anyhow.

People usually dream of being a doctor since childhood. You bet? I am too.
Since getting this far is a little bit too difficult and nonsense for me this naive child, I got another ambition of being a dentist.
So, my dream is to be someone who can earn alot of money.... That's kinda a not-so-ambitious aka PALSU-PUNYA dream i would suggest.

Well, grown up to this age, I had another dream. I would say I'm still struggling if this is what I really dreamed of. And yet I have no idea how to make it correct, anyone care to help me?
If yes, then I am really out of my way to fulfill my dream.
Fair enough?

I was consulted by my cousin last week, we were talking about what my future is.
The conversation was like an hour of brainstorming bout "money money money money and money". Grrr.. I nodded my head throughout the chatting. LOLZ
Yeah, money IS important, well I should make my word right... Earning money is what troubles us a lot, especially after graduation. And so on, having a family and our future generationssss.
Serious huh.. yes, we all know how significant this issue can be but.. in fact how many of us are really thinking bout this?
A friend of mine undergoing minor in entrepreneurship was trying to persuade me how important it is to start planning what kind of live I wanna live in the future now.

What really catches my attention is my future career. Am I good enough or what I should be emphasizing is that am I truly want to be a civil engineer?
Or what my actual interest to be an architect
Or a game designer in SE?
Or someone having an ordinary live living alone?

I have no idea...

Furthermore... Am I holding myself too much when I come to make new friends?? I was actually STILL looking for someone that can truly understands me and someone I am really comfortable to share my things with. A good friend (really good one）I suppose. Well this is kinda problematic when I refuse to unlock something which is locked inside my heart, perhaps like inception?? Someone will need to steal my thoughts in my dreamsss?

HA HA...

end of updating..

And congratzzz to those having nice friends and loved one. XD
You know who am I referring to..　
If you have no idea what I am writing here.. so am I.
Coz I never proof read what I wrote. HAHA again.

Out of a sudden

2010-08-01T00:46:00.001+08:00

i would like to start kissing and hugging all of you.....

awwwwwww......... ^^

say healthy and do rest well~~

though i'm still coughing like hell.... ><

搁下

2010-07-30T00:23:00.007+08:00

彩排完毕

整理完毕

处理完毕

安顿完毕

搁下工作

收拾行李

我可以安心的回家

莫名的空虚

莫名的回家feel

莫名的疲惫

或许

我早已习惯

不规律

放纵

无自由

的

生活

不知不觉

相处一个多月

不懂认识了多少

不懂自己改变了多少

不过

我知道

我们会越来越好

好开心表演受到好评

意外

当东西突然间找到出路时

多日的不安乱想情绪低落

可以360度大转变 =)

麻木

2010-07-28T23:57:00.002+08:00

我还不想酱快麻木

麻木的感觉不好。。。毕竟每个人对事情麻木的程度不一样

但

我还没有麻木。。

对同一样的东西久了

会厌倦

会烦闷

或许

我是因为这样而导致最近不懂为什么emo吗？

我可以说。。

我对着每一个我接的工作都还有热忱

吗？？

但

在我麻木之前

我很想有人支持我走下去

我不喜欢孤军奋战的感觉

虽然说。。。

我见解独特？？？

不容易亲近？？

还是。。。

不够稳定？

跳舞

2010-07-26T01:35:00.002+08:00

我爱跳舞。。

我不理别人怎样看我跳什么舞。。。

我不喜欢教人跳舞。。。

我喜欢和一样程度的人跳舞。。。。

我很想大家一起很好很齐的跳我很喜欢跳的舞。。。。

感觉这是我很久以前的想法

有时候我会觉得。。。

自己比上不足比下有余。。。

夹在中间很怪。。。

常常自己学舞。。。目的不是到教人跳。。

纯粹爱跳。。。。

爱把跳舞当一个运动。。解压的方式。。。

不喜欢教舞。。。不喜欢人家把我自己学的。。不标准的舞。。

和原版比较。。而且要把很难的舞教好不容易。。。。

我很想跳快快的。。。很帅的。。。

但学不会。。

只好学感觉学得会的。。。

有时候觉得自己一个人学。。。学不会没人教就是学不会

我懂有些事情一个人是做不到的。。。

这次gl跳舞。。。

自己再次学新的舞。。。

不同的是。。。有人和我一起学。。。

有人会纠正。。。又和我差不多水准的。。。

有一半开心。。。一半很累的gl们陪我。。

虽然个人要求不低。。。但这次通过表艺营的经验后，对教舞遭到了一些诀窍。。。

只要肯学就一定会。。。跳不好没关系。。。给我的感觉是有心。。。

就ok了

男gl们很不错会跳。。。

有一点惊讶我们的进度。。。 =D

但离要求不近以下。。。。不用紧

重点是。。。我看到的是一班很用心在学舞蹈的partner们。。。

感觉自己偶尔会很凶。。。偶尔会跳tone。。。偶尔一时去跳别的舞。。 XD

不好意识。。

会快吗？？？还要加强要求吗？

大家跳到脚酸。。。很累。。。。

真的辛苦的话可以说。。。不要像我以前表艺营时脚是走不到路的

和你们相处很开心。。。一起跳舞很开心。。。

若是跳更难的舞更开心。。 ==

哈哈

大家晚安啦。。。

要常常跳舞哦！！ =)

Not done yet

2010-07-22T13:43:00.006+08:00

Yet the most "solid" things are done

but there's still a long way to go.... and for now I'm not satisfy yet

Well, I still love my name tags and banner^^

alot

我很累

2010-07-19T03:09:00.001+08:00

"-"

2010-07-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

gosh

i m terribly craving for nice sweet drinkss~~

emo me will always wanted to treat himself sweet cold beveragesssss

now i'm looking for someone who "dear" enough to buy me KOI...

wanted for 2 nights... awwwwww

today's wwweird combination of coffee with tea plus a scope of vanila ice cream can't really drive my emo away totally....

where is my emo-go-away-remedy????

Banner production-- draft

2010-07-12T02:18:00.001+08:00

In progress... gambate Lulu!!

很多的不懂

2010-07-12T01:58:00.004+08:00

每次开会回来，一定有很多东西很想写出来，但又不懂要怎样写，真是无趣。

不懂为什么这次开会会这么没结果

不懂为什么我会酱不开心

不懂为什么我还看不到别人的认真

不懂为什么我还是这么不会应付这样的情况

不懂为什么没有听的人就是没有听

不懂为什么还是有人这么自我，不理别人的感受

不懂为什么会有人讲话可以不面对面讲，而且是那些听起来不好听的话

不懂为什么我总是要做那个赶东赶西，安排一切的人，而且每一次都是last minute的

不懂我是不是把你们人叫过来而没有把你们的心拉来

不懂为什么我不爽我不敢跟你们说

不懂我要怎样去交待

不懂我会不会不知不觉把自己框起来，变得自

不懂为什么一个很好的周末我会结束得那么不开心

不懂为什么我会想到这些东西

被动的人很多

主动的做不好的时候

我该去做主动还是被动

回来打一些觉得很没意义的字

看看之前写下cgl 和自己对自己的要求。。。

再想自己的初宗。。。。。

感觉很远很远，我没有向那个目标前进

不懂这个感觉会不会越来越好，还是坏？？

写下这些。。。。为了让以后的我看看先在的我，这样写，这样想，是好是坏

很感谢我的partner鼓励我

哭过就好了？

2010-07-09T00:29:00.004+08:00

常常

我会对

你的一举一动

而哭

你知道吗？

我真的需要这么做吗？

祝一切顺利

2010-07-07T18:10:00.003+08:00

好不容易，定下了心来，虽然还是不满意现在的我，东西也还没有安顿好。

只是希望一切会很顺利，地走下去。

感觉很忙，没时间，很多东西做，很容易忽略别的东西。。。

东西可以不要那么赶，好吗？

一些很深的东西，很想弄明白，很努力，很无助。

不好意思，搞得自己好像不负责任。

一些东西，辗转之下，矛头从对着别人变到对着自己。

很恍惚，很乱。

不懂要写什么。。。

加油GL团。。。

很希望能和你们很好很好很好很好很好很好很好很好很好